Monday, October 18, 2010

30 Days of Truth: Day 1

I stumbled across a post the really caught my attention.  Jhen (From Here to Eternity) has decided to take on the 30 Days of Truth challenge.  I decided to join.  Although it is going to be hard to stick with it for 30 days, due to feeling I need to avoid a few of the questions, I promise I will be honest and I will do my best to stick with it.

Here goes nothing :)

Day 1: Something you hate about yourself
My Mom taught my Brother & I a very valuable lesson.  I will always remember driving down Pendleton Rd. (the St. I grew up on), and listening to my Mom reprimand my Brother for saying he "hates" something, or someone.  I remember her saying things like "hate is a very strong word", and "you don't hate, you DISLIKE". Those simple sayings have been engraved into my brain.  I agree with my Mom, hate IS a very powerful word, and I do my best to use it as sparingly as possible.
So with that said, I hope you can understand why it is so hard for me to answer the question "what do I hate about myself?".  
With lots if digging into my heart, I have discovered something.  I truly hate the fact that I procrastinate.  Like, really- it's ridiculous.  I know you're thinking... "oh, common, Jen, everyone is guilty of procrastination", but my dose of procrastination is pretty heavy.  Here I am, a new Mom.  With that comes a new job- Jeff and I have decided that I will stay at home with the Bug, take care of the house chores, cook, clean, and conquer this Mama world.  I am ecstatic that I am blessed to have a man by my side that is willing to fully support his family.  What Jeff delivers is everything and more to this family- he provides the essentials to keep us on our feet.   When we decided to put this new job title to my name, I thought it was going to be pretty easy.  I thought I was going to hold up the "super Mom" title pretty well... I was wrong.
I hate the fact that I feel I don't deliver.  Yes, I know, I care for and cuddle our baby bundle on a daily basis.. but it's the other requirements that come along with being a stay at home Mom.  Like, laundry, cleaning, and cooking.  I'm guilty (& I hate it).  I currently have baskets full of clothes that need cared for, a disastrous bedroom, a kitchen that is need of disinfecting, and a cluttered, dusty, dirty living room (it looks like the baby god puked all over the place to be honest with you).   I have a pork roast in the fridge that needs to go into the crock pot, and TONS of important phone calls that need to be made.  I'm not about to throw out excuses for myself- it all comes down to simple things.  So what's holding me back?  Two words come into mind... 1.) laziness (I honestly never thought I would call myself lazy).  2.) Procrastination (AKA.. hate).
I need to step it up a bit around here.  Badly.  So, along with this 30 days of truth challenge, I'm making my own challenge for myself... 30 days to a stay at home mommy makeover.  I need to learn how to juggle the necessities, and to take care of business (& my Bug needs to learn how to stop being so darn cute!). 

So there it is.  Day 1 is accomplished.  It felt good to get that out there- now help me out and give me words of encouragement to get off my booty and get this stuff done!  Thanks, friends!

Day 01 → Something you hate about yourself.
Day 02 → Something you love about yourself.
Day 03 → Something you have to forgive yourself for.
Day 04 → Something you have to forgive someone for.
Day 05 → Something you hope to do in your life.
Day 06 → Something you hope you never have to do.
Day 07 → Someone who has made your life worth living for.
Day 08 → Someone who made your life hell, or treated you like shit.
Day 09 → Someone you didn’t want to let go, but just drifted.
Day 10 → Someone you need to let go, or wish you didn’t know.
Day 11 → Something people seem to compliment you the most on.
Day 12 → Something you never get compliments on.
Day 13 → A band or artist that has gotten you through some tough ass days. (write a letter.)
Day 14 → A hero that has let you down. (letter)
Day 15 → Something or someone you couldn’t live without, because you’ve tried living without it.
Day 16 → Someone or something you definitely could live without.
Day 17 → A book you’ve read that changed your views on something.
Day 18 → Your views on gay marriage.
Day 19 → What do you think of religion? Or what do you think of politics?
Day 20 → Your views on drugs and alcohol.
Day 21 → (scenario) Your best friend is in a car accident and you two got into a fight an hour before. What do you do?
Day 22 → Something you wish you hadn’t done in your life.
Day 23 → Something you wish you had done in your life.
Day 24 → Make a playlist to someone, and explain why you chose all the songs. (Just post the titles and artists and letter)
Day 25 → The reason you believe you’re still alive today.
Day 26 → Have you ever thought about giving up on life? If so, when and why?
Day 27 → What’s the best thing going for you right now?
Day 28 → What if you were pregnant or got someone pregnant, what would you do?
Day 29 → Something you hope to change about yourself. And why.
Day 30 → A letter to yourself, tell yourself EVERYTHING you love about yourself

4 comments:

  1. Ra Ra Shish Boom Ba! You can do it yes you can! {yup, that's me cheerleading for you}. Gosh, I'm lazy too. With Jon sick yesterday I felt so overwhelmed and then my grandpa said, "this is what every mom does". Hit me to the core. I've been spoiled and lazy! HA!

    P.S. I have your Bumbo and Jae's toy that I'll have to get to you!

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  2. I can identify with this whole-heartedly. When my son was born, I had strong feelings of inadequacy and failure because I never felt as if I truly accomplished what all I "needed" to accomplish. Have you tried making yourself a schedule? Picking a few things to do every day? I have a cleaning schedule so I don't spend my entire day cleaning and don't feel so overwhelmed by the giant list of to-do's. Thanks for linking up today! Looking forward to getting to know you better through this journey!

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  3. Cute blog. Your daughter is adorable :) Looking forward to reading more :)

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  4. New follower...found you through the 30 days. I too am a new mom (although, while I wish I could stay at home, right now I just can't). I am TOTALLY with you on the not keeping up with the housework. I have dishes from the WEEKEND in the sink (gross) and I haven't touched them. Tonight I'm going to before someone calls "Hoarders" on me (ok...perhaps THAT is an exaggeration...LOL!) but I just can't get the motivation to lay this baby down when he's sleeping so peacefully on my lap. Good luck with your quest!!!

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