The following writings is slightly negative and mainly just a way for me to release some frustrations. Read at your own discretion.
Breathe in, breathe out... breathe in, breathe out.
That's what I struggle to remind myself. To take deep individual breaths and realize that life is... well, life. I have been tested lately- from every angle of life's struggles. From my camera malfunctioning and needing to save in order to purchase a new machine, to my computer's keyboard being reprogrammed (I love you, baby girl!, but you aren't quite ready to play on Mommy's comuter), to being bed ridden for 3 days with an extremely painful pulled muscle in my back, to multiple doctors visits for my Bug to rule out some sort of virus that causes... well, I think that's TMI, to some other serious personal issues that tend to be a constant battle in my mind.
It's so crazy how life throws tests at you- and when it rains, it pours. I need to remember... there's a light at the end of the tunnel. It may be a long one, but it's there and I won't give up.
Part of my issues are due to postpartum (I have never once admitted that on my Blog). I've got a good case of depression. It is partially due to the changes and stresses of being a Mommy (I wouldn't change it for a thing), but also has to do with my pregnancy story. I'm gaining the confidence to possibly write about it on Utah Baby Blog.. stay tuned for my extremely revealing story. I'm beginning to learn that others can relate to my story, and I love that I can possibly reach out to help other Mommies. But, as I said... I need to gain the confidence to reveal all, because the puzzle won't be complete unless I share all.
So I continue to remind myself... breathe in, breathe out. Relax. Take life one day at a time and thank God for every Blessing in my life.
I know life could be MUCH worse, and I AM thankful for all I am blessed with. It just feels good to release, and God Bless my Blog to have a place to do that.